Thursday, March 17, 2011

The Woman I have become...

Little girls always envision what they will be like when they are older. Perhaps I have selective memory, but this is what I remember from those visions, for better or for worse.

I was going to be married to a great guy.
I think being married to my husband is amazing. He works hard to make me happy and he's a great daddy. If Shyla finds a husband that is anything like her daddy, she will be in great shape.

I was going to be a mommy.
Soon to be double-check.
How many checks will there be in the end? Most likely only 2. But 2 is a good number and only time will tell.

I was going to be a teacher.
I'm still not sure if I wanted to be a teacher only because that was what I knew. I enjoyed school and I wanted to help others enjoy school. I have learned that it is harder work than I ever realized with less praise, but I have also learned that the schedule is pretty good for raising children (especially easy for me to say right now since I am on spring break.)

I was going to drive a SUV.
I always resolved to NOT drive a mini-van, but I knew I would need a large car. Truthfully I always envisioned it being red, but close enough.

I was going to always have perfectly manicured nails.
Weird, I know, but I always thought that would be the case. This, unfortunately, is a serious no-check.

I was going to be that mom who did laps around the park while her kids attended practice.
Shyla doesn't have practice yet but the un-pregnant me does a lot of laps around the park and I look forward to making this a full check within the next few years.

I was going to have matching drinking glasses.
Not sure why this was important to me (other than the fact that my family never used matching glasses) but we do have a nice set of glasses.

I was never going to worry about my weight, because I would easily be fit all the time.
Un-check and bummer.
I will always have to work hard at it, and I'm looking forward to doing that in about 5 months.

I'm sure there was more that I envisioned, but that's all I can remember for now. When I think of my life the word "lucky" comes to mind. I always try to replace that word with "blessed" or even "deserved" when I am feeling vain, but I must say that I have been very lucky.

When I start to feel envious of others, I simply look around at what I have. Because I have it all.


Chelsea said...

Awww sister, this is beautiful. You are lucky, and blessed, and it is also very much deserved. You've made good choices and made your dreams come true.
I'm so proud of you.

your MOM said...

What a powerful says what a lot of us think but rarely say or write. You deserve a magical and blessed life.

Erin = ) said...

Kendra, I love this post, seriously. It's honest and heartfelt and really amazing. I didn't know when I was little the kind of friends I'd have when I was a grown up woman, but I sure did luck out to have you as one of the best ones. Can I also say that I LOVE when you're on spring break beacuse you have more time to update your blog?! Love it!